Grrr...the games  

Posted by: Angel

I am soo incredibly sick of the games that are played by boys. I mean every single guy out there plays mind games. I mean is that how it goes?? really?? You find yourself just giving into the ways of how things just real reason or explaination its just how it be in a relationship you must adapt to the "game playing" I just have the hardest time dealing with that. I don't understand why people can't just say what they mean and mean what they say...

Misleading vibes off of guys are just too much for me to deal! All of my friends cept me have someone to call their someone! Me not soo much maybe its cuz im too picky er too much against the game playing who knows. I am not guna just settle tho. I mean the only guys i seem to be into are the wrong ones the ones that are willing the mind F*** you and break your heart!

The nice boys the ones that would do anything for me well its always something. The attraction isn't there or they have stalker like qualities...etc.

Its just soo annoying to me to the point where i am becoming a real true "man hater"

I gave 9 yrs to a pos that did nothing but mind f*** me from day one. So to just talk to various guys and see that they are all the damn same is very discouraging to me.

I feel like if there is such a guy out there then he is going to make the initiative! Show me that just as much as i think of him he thinks of me. The who texts who first or "he hasn't called all day" games that men play I feel should not be played w. me if there really is a guy out there...that has the IT factor....

Ahh i feel much better now! I def. dont want to become a man hater but its really hard when all thats out there are d-bags that aint bout shit but telling u what you want to hear...I get red flags 32 seconds into a IM with a guy like really is there a sign on me that says OHHH please pick me Im the girl that lovess the retards....

yet another brick thrown  

Posted by: Angel

Man, as if my life couldn't get anymore complicated.....yet another brick is thrown at me! Awesome!!!! My house has been sold and now i have to move out in 30days....lmao really thats all i can do is just laugh it off cuz as long as i laugh about it I wont cry about it.

Now I know to a few of you that read this that think I dont know that you read this....Seeing me fail might bring some sort of evil heartless happiness to your life. I will say Your welcome now for that!

I am just going to trust that things are going to work out exactly the way they should! For whatever reason this house isn't where I am supposed to raise my children soo I am guna deal with the facts of that and move on!

ha Maybe I am supposed to move to Canada lmao!!!! who knows....


Posted by: Angel

So spring break is over and I couldn't be happier! LOL dont get me wrong I love spending time with my kids but man am i glad that they are back in school LOL!

So this is Day One of the way my life is going to be here on out...might sound a little confusing to some not knowing my current situation but I am extremely blessed! It is going to be hard, this i know but I pray that God will give me the strength to handle this!

Everything happens for a reason and its kinda ironic, usually when things happen that arent so great you dont really know the answer to exactly why it happened and you dont understand the lesson right away! But the lesson has slapped me in the face and the reason behind the heartache is evident!

I cannot be anything but greatful for how things have went down this year!

Its sad that ppl dont learn their lessons though....But again that is not anything I can control. I will just take what I have learned from all of this and make the appropriate changes needed! There is a long and trying road ahead for me and my children but we will get through it! That is a promise!

I am so greatful for the family and friends who have helped me and will continue to help me throughout all of this!

Friend or Foe??  

Posted by: Angel

I guess everyone is different when defining a friendship. A true friendship that is. To me a true friend is someone who has your ultimate best interest at heart always! Someone who when you are feeling down and out is there to pick you up, when you have a broken heart they are there to pick up the pieces!!! True friends are so hard to come by and sometimes you lose sight of what it really means to have such a friend in your life. It is not how much someone does for you that defines them as being a good person or friend but the fact that whenever your down, you know you can call them no matter what and they will stop what they are doing and just listen. I cherish my friendships with the few people i have them with because it is soo hard to find someone who is 100% real and true to you. You can't trust a lot of people. Most of the time when you confide in someone about some of the most personal things in your life they just use that information to their own advantage.

It saddens me to know that low blows can be made in a matter of seconds! Words are very hurtful sometimes esp. when coming from someone you consider to be the closest person in your life!

At the end of the day though you just have to pick yourself back up and move on with life. Everything happens for a reason. Relationships end and friendships fail but the earth still spins.....and if you continue to bottle things up and hold on to something that isn't there, you inturn are just making yourself a miserable person. I am trying for 2010 to be the best possible person i know i can be. If I am hated for that then so be it. I know in my heart that throughout it all i have had the purest of intentions!