wondering wednesday  

Posted by: Angel

Unfortunately today I am a little overwhelmed.....I find myself wondering about my future. I am supposed to go back to work December first yet I am unsure where I will be working. I love my job I love working with tiny humans....it makes me feel important. It's saddens me b.c I can't work anything but days b.c my kids need me. There is no position open so it kind of depresses me. I am nervous about not having a job that I can work and still make myself as available to my children as possible. I need a job but my babies come first and i have made so much progress with alyssa I almost feel that if I don't stick with it I am almost certain that things will start Going downhill. I don't have much help from their dad as far as parental support......he is going thru some things so I def feel a little alone. I have Joel but its not his responsibility

use more senses  

Posted by: Angel

I have had a tremendous amour of lifes curve balls thrown at me this entire year and the only thing that has helped me was some advice I received from my psych doctor.
Just stop and actually smell the roses. When you eating don't be distracted concentrate on the different tastes ur tastebuds are showering you with. This helps clear your mind. It's a little bit like meditating which I highly recommend . It works wonders on soul searching and/or aides in the healing process. It's almost vital for survival that u have an escape and if your like me and free time just isn't there then u must improvise . When your driving instead of listening to music or being on the phone concentrate on your visual sense and the touch of how the steering wheel or the smell of the wind with the window down or the sound it makes.....we all take advantage of our senses . When never stop and smell the pretty rose we just comment on it and keep walking. Life is too busy no time for enjoying life......so I am working on this with my doctors.

novembers reflection  

Posted by: Angel

As. Christmas slowly approaches I find myself looking back at this last year and finding myself humbled and grateful for making it out alive thus far. I have learned kindness patience and a great deal of parenting skills I never had before. I finally have ppl calling me for parenting advice. I guess when ur doing everything ur supposed to do ....which might I add was the hardest part tryin to figure out the right things to do. My children are my life! They keep me going that's for sure. I can't explain it to the younger generation enough how important it is to strive for greatness and never allow someone to break you down. Self esteem is a big player in the development of our future generation. Suicide rate in children has blown thru the roof. And that's b.c we have had children too young. We raised them not thinkn how important it is to b a positive role model. My generation seemed to have a sorta baby boom so our future generation is raised to believe work ethic isn't needed nor is respect considered an important tool to get thru life successfully. My oldest is my example. It is really hard to try and go back and reteach a preteen . I truely believe tho that everything happens for a reason.. I believe ppl come into ur life for a reason as well as leave your life for a reason. How do u enforce discipline upon an unruly child .....they make it so there is laws to protect the children from spankins so the kids think. Little do they know u can spank your child properly and not get into trouble but I don't think spanking is anyway to teach a child all it does is promote violence and show ur child hitting is okay