Hello Monday!!!!!!  

Posted by: Angel

Good Morning to the world.....I am up on my second cup of coffee, lyss just went off to her "face to face" program and my two fellas are still asleep. <===they are sooooo lazyyyy haha.

Well, the weekend was good. We drove out to Tecumseh to get some of my things....wow! He is something else ( the douche bag #2 ; the #1 spot denny has held strong for 13 some years or so ha.) I had an officer escort me out there but this is how things went down. First off b.c I haven't been there in 6 months, If i didn't have an escort and just walked in he could have charged me with "breaking and entering" even tho everything in that house is furnished w. my shit! up to but not limited to the shower curtain and kitchen garbage can. He first didn't want me there and said no dice...but I have the electricity in my name. All my stuff is there. I have a key ( he changed the locks tho) and Im on the lease.

He kicked me out!!!! now though he wants to play like I bounced on him leaving him with the house so he should get to keep all my shit....cuz I "owe" him over $4,000 baahahaha keep dreamin fairy!!!!

Anyways we ended up getting a few things while he stood there and told the cop " i gave her ample time to get her things and she did not " wait a min. you gave me ample time when i was in the hosp. and or recovering...or when my daughter was in juvie or hosp. cuz the last 7 months have been a blurr for me. Like you get to sit here with kids that dont have issues like my daughter does. And for the ignorant ppl that choose to think my daughter is the way she is cuz of me just shows the lack of education you have and lack of knowledge and understanding of mental illness you really have. You don't get to choose when your kids born like a sign that says " take this path, be a good mom, and your child will never get sick....or take this path, be a bad mom and your child ends up with 3 different diagnoises and a court date in the morning" <====commmmeeee onnnn guyyyyy are you serious!!!! Any mother out there that can honestly say they never made a bad choice involving their child is a damn lie!!!! Ohhh wait they must have just misplaced that manual that they are born with. Trial and Error is how parenting goes. Everyone lives in a glass house its just some of us put it out there.....Stones are always thrown so why not just be upfront!

I kind of am flattererd tho that these ppl decided to start reading my blogssss....makes me wanna blog more!

So, Tomorrow is court!!!! Yikes!!! We are soooo nervous. Lyss expecially. Denny Hoed her out big time once again. He couldnt just give up one single sunday to his daughter!!!!! She is hurt again. Her dad " lied again" she says....It fucks me up sorry but she has him on a pedistal and he is just a constant let down. Ha. theres the consisitency we ask for i guess.....The messed up part is the courts have no interest in speaking to me. She didn't assualt me....yet he hasn't a clue what goes on in his childs life. He didn't help me get her coverage (he should have both his kids insured....) he never visited her...rarely called to speak to her. I didn't allow patient info to be allowed to be told to anyone but me. He didn't fight me on it...actually it was prolly a way for him to feel better about being outtie.

He will say (his side of the story) I was such a pos never had my kids...ok there were three times I have had denny have to keep my kids....lyss before brayden when I was young working at the bar....living the bar life...for about 6m. 19yrs i think. Ohh and then theres lyss and b when denny cheated on me and i moved/he kicked me out....i literally had nowhere to go ...desperate for somewhere to lay my head I even spent the night at tiffs dads.......lived out of my pink adidas bag. He didn't care I was being a shitty mom......and this time I had a collapsed lung directly after my childs 2 or 3rd admission.....sooo 12-28-10 1st admission for alyssa ( still lived w. john) 2-14-11 John kicks me out of the house 2-15-11 first night at laura n joes 2-23-11 the day i took leave of absense ( interment) it was through 8-1-11 ......... Alyssa was admitted twice in March ( beginning and middle of march) 3-23-11 <=lung collapse 3-31-11 had lung surgery(part of my upper and lower lobe were removed........4-3-11 I was discharged from hosp. at like 1030 pm...cuz i was not going to be in the hosp for my babygirls b day......although this is the first year ever in her life i didn't have a party...but my brother was up here with papaw visiting so they got to see her on her b day!!!!!! Her dad again promised her a party and it never happened! Every year since she can remember he has promised her shit and literally followed thru with disappointment! Yet it all for sure gets taken out on me.....any way I went back to work finally...health is cleared.,....7/7/11 I was soo happy except my kid was readmitted on that day as well.....mind you 7/7 is her last admission she was discharged two days before that which would be 4th admission...being 6/25/11......Her last admission, lasted nearly 4 weeks...2 days shy of 4 weeks....Sooo I got about a month into work and have to take another leave for stress for myself and am seeing a therapist on sept. 9th.......I had all my support pretty much come from the ladies at work! I had a few hook up when medicaid denied my child in patient transfer after highly recommended by her doctor who has followed her for over 6wks. I emailed the CEO AND MEDICAL DIRECTOR FOR HAP DR. BALA PAI......Then one of the neos on our unit her husband just happened to be the CEO of the hospital alyssa was admitted to 5 times and from the help email i sent to her asking desperately for help, when mentioning it to her husband, I guess he already was aware of alyssa's case b.c she is a little more high risk. I was contacted by HAP ( they dont cover long term care only acute mental health) which is where her medicaid picks it up. Welll interesting enough they denied her too...hmmmm it says she poses a threat to herself and others...they said she does not pose a threat to herself or otherss....So I contacted the Head of Gateway(medicaid has like two teams the red and the blue and gateway is the red) mind you i have the doctor ( Dr. Pajurla ) who calls me on her way hme from the hosp. when she is eating on lunch at the hosp. I mean she is by far the nicest and most caring person in general) but I decided to call and email the guy off the top of my head can't think of his name. But I appealed the denial 3 times with the same response. They discharged her and I took her to the court house b.c that was unfortunately the only other route the system in good ol michigan has for our children dealing with mental health issues. Dr. Parsons...(CEO of Kingswood hosp.) called me. We spoke for a good 30min. about how exhausted he is of seeing this too many times. Fortunately, He was covering for Dr. Lagrue on lyss's first admission so she started out his patient. He said to me " its sad that parents are expected to fight the fight....with no resources..YOu are fighting the fight w. the system and have a medical background and resources and kind of an in and are getting nowhere" Hands are tied in every direction when it comes to the lack of funds out there for Mental Health.

The Governor, needs to get back funds and programs that allow proper treatment for the ppl less fortunate. Children are suffering. Adults are homeless walking around looking like they are smoking crack, probably turn to it when there is no coverage for them and no meds to stabilize. Those ppl are our generation grown up.....and our future is my child. We need help in a big kind of way. I am not done addressing this issue b.c my child is affected and someone somewhere will give me answers as to why our children are not exempt from the denial process.....an 11yr old should not be a threat to herself or others.....yet when they are declared unstable in even a stable environment and are denied it saddens me to think of our childrens future. Why would the political parties fight for such things unless they had a child directly in the way of the system set up to fail.

It all stems back to Governor Ingler taking all of the funds away b.c most of the adults in the mental health community dont have an address let alone a voter registration card......so why fund them when they wont vote anyway! Completely sickening and it pisses me off every single time i speak about it.

Watch out politicians I think i found my niche. and you will see me sitting on Lansings door step one day over this!!!!! My kids motivate me like no other!!!!!!

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